Forever a truckers wife.

A lot of people will say "if I had it to do over I'd do it differently" and never get to revisit that opportunity.
Our family, on the other hand, is being blessed with a major "re-do", and I am more than prepared to do it right this time.

This week has been a lot of decision making, and weighing pros and cons, and my husband and I decided with the 5th baby due in 4 months, the airport shuttle job isn't going to cut it anymore.

Joe leaves for Oklahoma as soon as he receives the call for his trucking company's orientation date.

Am I sad? Of course.
Stressed out about it? You bet.

However, I'm also thrilled about getting back to the income that allowed our "easier" lifestyle for the past 6 years.

So the way I need to look at it, rather than concentrating on the fact my husband will be gone so much, is that I have another opportunity to do things differently.

Last go 'round, I was too nice about lending money.
Lesson learned.

I piddled away money like it was being printed in the garage. Bills were all paid, and kids never missed out on anything, but did I really need to get coffee every morning, get (and maintain) acrylics, and go shopping with friends at the drop of a hat? I'm in California. That shyt ain't cheap.
Lesson also learned.

Now I have the chance to stash it away like a squirrel preparing for winter. That crap is over.

Hubby is stressed out about missing the new baby's milestones, missing birthdays and holidays, and about me having to raise them on my own.
Understandable.
However, if it was a second baby rather than the 5th I'd probably be more hesitant- since I felt the second was the harder of them all to adjust to. Any baby born after that was easy to adjust to.
No worries there. I'm a tougher bitch than I'm given credit for. I'd like to see my "haters" do what I do. ;)

The kids are thrilled that this time they're old enough to go with him.
How cool is that gonna be for Joey??? The one most effected by his daddy's last stint on the road actually gets to see the country with his idol.
And the virtual school gives him the freedom to do schoolwork anywhere for that week or so.

Anyway.
Things are going to be different for everyone. But a good different.
This time, as a "veteran" trucker's wife, I have the ability to be more supportive of the friends I have who are just starting their TW journey (i.e. dawn, kristin, etc)
I feel I'm more qualified to be a support system for these women, now. I've been through it.
Yea. That's now I'm looking at this.
I'm not losing my husband. I'm gaining perspective on life and get to show my children I'm an asset to people who need me.
Including them.



Godspeed.